The Last Miracle

Chatting with Torsion using coin --

7/6/2017 7pm Outside of Vet Clinic 

J: Do you want me to bring the ashes back or let the vet office take it up to mountain?

T: Mountain

(At vet clinic)

J: Are you still in your body?

T: No

7/6/2017 Late Evening
J: Are you here?

T: Yes

J: can I ask you some questions?

T: Yes

J: were you waiting for me before you died?

T: No

7/7/2017 Around noon

(At new house)

J: Are you here?

T: Yes

J: (Introducing the new house to Torsion)

J: I wish you were going to move in with us next month

J: Do you think the last few months of your life was really bad?

T: No

(Asking hubby to call the vet office to see if I could get a paw print of Torsion)

J: would you be happy if I get a paw print?

T: No

J: Will you be mad at me if I get it anyway?

T: No

J: Then why not? Are you concerning about the money?

T: Yes

J: We have forty dollars, I'm getting your paw print. Isn't it nice if I got your paw print and feel that you are here with me so I would be happy, and then you don't have to keep being here and support me?

T: Yes

J: So rude 

(In the car)

J: are you here Torsion

T: Yes

J: Are you on my lap?

T: Yes

7/7/2017 Afternoon

J: Torsion are you here?

T: Yes

J: Do you know where you are going and what you are going to do next?

T: Yes

J: OK, that's good. You know when you really have to leave right?

T: yes

7/7/2017 Late Evening

J: Are you here Torsion?

T: Yes

J: were you waiting for me that day?

T: No

J: I don't believe you, were you waiting for me before you died?

T: No

J: Torsion, did you intentionally die when I was at work?

T: No 

J: Are you sad that you didn't see me before you died?

T: No

J: Is it because you love me?

T: No

J: oh, is it because you are free and not in pain anymore?

T: Yes

J: Will you let me know if you really have to go?

T: Yes

7/7/2017 Late Evening, before I went to bed

J: Tor, are you here?

T: Yes

J: are you going to stay with me tonight?

T: No

J: oh...will you be back tomorrow?

T: Yes

J: OK. Love you. 

7/8 4am

Me: Torsion are you here?

T: Yes

Me: If you don't consider the cost, would you rather me pick up your ashes and put it somewhere in our front yard?

T: Yes

Me: okay, I will take your ashes back

Me: 我會好好的，我也會照顧(huuby's name), 會好好照顧和教育妹妹,會照顧阿公阿嬤，你也要好好的自己照顧自己。如果你有好的機會，要快點去喔！不要擔心我了！謝謝你一直照顧我! 

I felt Torsion gave me a hug and kiss on the face.

I went back to sleep.

At 7:10am, I woke up, and I knew he's gone.

I tried to throw the coin again, it's just a regular coin.

I put the coin back to the piggy bank. 既使我不想要把硬幣放回零錢筒，我還是投了下去，因為我知道，他這輩子已經等我好久了，這一次，我要讓他去做他需要做的事，我不應該再繼續耽誤他了。

7/8/2017 2:14pm

I came to shoreline park to say my final goodbye. I think you may be busy traveling to your next destination, so I'd figure you would be able to see me from an open space easier. I can't stop thinking about you,but please do not worry, I'm doing just fine. I love you. Goodbye, Tortor! Goodbye!

7/9/2017 5:31am

Torsion, I saw you have arrived your departure gate. Good luck. I love you and I'm doing great! You look so cute as usual! I didn't say anything because I didn't want to distract you. I saw your tail is wagging and you are ready...go for it, baby!

Tortor, 我還是好想你啊！不過我知道我最後能為你做的事，就是讓你安心地離開，不然我好想繼續跟你聊天呢！

謝謝你最後告訴我你安全抵達了下一站的入口，不知道另外一邊的世界是甚麼樣子的呢？不知道你下一個Mission是甚麼？不論如何，我會好好的過生活、會做一個更好的人，至少我要讓你很驕傲地說＂我上一個在人世間的project很成功！＂

Thank you so much! Good luck on your next journey!

Love you forever!