Didn't Get to Say Goodbye!

I ordered these treats from California to make myself feel closer to Taiwan during this Lunar New Year. I haven't been really celebrated this holiday for 14 years, and I always felt alright until this year. My grandma passed away around mid-night during new year's day, and I didn't get to say the last goodbye (we just couldn't get baby's passport ready in time). The thing that makes this even more sad is 13 years ago, I was working on midterms while my grandpa passed away, and I didn't get to say goodbye either. I try to brainwash myself this is the last blessing that they gave me - they didn't want me to rush 7000 miles back to see them take their last breath. 

A family friend made a video with tons of grandma's photos, and I all the sudden realize how many family gatherings I've missed during these years that I am in United States. I guess I am kind of sad to see that. Anyway, I am fine...life is about personal choices, and once we've made the choice, we have to try to live without regret, and even if we have a little bit regret, just try to hide it in the bottom of our hearts...life just goes on...