Sunday, February 9, 2014

Career?! Future?!


It's pretty awesome to be "pets"...they don't have to worry to much about $/job. 

Every time I look online regarding jobs, I feel kind of sad. When I was in college, I was like - 4 more years, then I will be getting a job. 4 years later, the economic went south, as a foreigner in States, I didn't have many options besides going to graduate school; at that time, I was thinking - 2 more years, then I will be able to get a job. 2 years later, I got a tiny job while I was on 12-month-Optional Practical Training (F1 visa) and was trying to get another offer so that I can extend my OPT into 26 months; I got an offer, but the employer didn't have E-verify number, so eventually I went back home and my friends were very very kind to take care of my dachshund. 6-month later, I came back with F-1 visa again and worked on another Master's degree. Luckily, this time, I got to meet my true love (and also got selected the green card lottery) and I don't have to worry about my immigration status anymore. We both went to school and started our career at the same time, and bought a house together.

I have a good job - low stress, okay pay, awesome benefits, close to home...but I feel like I'm trapped somehow. I am trying to improve my career by taking SOA exams (yup...studying again...it's probably my favorite thing to do after I came to United States), and I've started to check the job market a lot recently. The field is so narrow...and truthfully, the paid is not as good as what people told me. On top of that, there is like NO actuarial jobs around where I live now, and there's not many actuarial jobs across the county anyway.

Not that I'm not willing to relocate - I had a coworker who moved across the country for another position, and it seems not too hard. I moved from Taiwan to Kansas to current city, for sure, it's not hard. So what's my problems?! It's not exactly a problem, but I don't want to live apart from hubby and pets. My coworker has wife and kids who don't work and when I was moving before I was single, but I now have a hubby who has a career - how can I selfishly ask him to give up his career to move with me?! how can we both magically get a job at the same city at the similar time?! are we going to sell our house for a position that I don't even know whether it will work out in long run?! There are so many questions in my mind that I don't have answers for. What is good?! What is bad?! How can I make the decision to move my family financial situation forward and not backward?! :'(




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