[E|C] Goodbye, Half of my September!

*中文在英文後*

September has been crazy. We drove over 20 hours in three days to travel to/from CA, and One USA Unit also traveled back to Kansas with me. It was a pleasure to visit family and friends. Right before we left for KS, my parents told me they are traveling back to Taiwan...I knew something must be wrong and unfortunately I was right - my uncle passed away all the sudden at age 59. This makes me think of a lot of things...

My grandpa passed away in the middle of my second semester in college. I gave myself two days to get over the fact that I couldn't be able to make it back home to say the last goodbye.

I've missed tons of family reunions, best friends and cousins' weddings, my closest cousin's band performances and his graduation, child births, b-day parties, death...there's time I run through some memories in my head and do my "what if" scenarios...

I hardly call anyone, I do email, but unfortunately not everyone does email...and I haven't learned to chat with people through phone...I guess this is kind of sad that I miss out the chances to connect with many people who I love and care about. 

To family/friend that I didn't get you say the last goodbye - as a lousy person I've been and left many things behind back home, you've been in my thoughts many times. I've missed you and will continue missing you. R.I.P.

已經九月了...從我開始寫這一篇到現在，又過了半個月。這十五天來，發生了很多事，其中包括

我們三天內開了二十多小時來回加州探望親友，託我爸媽的福，這是我在2007年後再度拜訪，也謝謝親友們熱情招待。

我和大白又花了三天回我大學念書的地方探望我很久一直想探望的朋友，上次見面是2008年五月。

令我最驚訝和難過的是，就是聽到親戚過世的消息了。我過去十二年不常回台灣，念書時沒錢回去、工作時沒時間回去，就算回台灣十天，也沒辦法見到很多人。人在這種狀況下會變得很勇敢或是某些人會覺得我很無情，卻不知道我常常在夜深人靜的時候慢慢地回想過去在台灣的生活、默默的想著自己得到的與錯過的...人生如果能重來一次，其實我也不確定我會不會再有勇氣背著許多的不諒解，自己在太平洋的另一端努力的生存著。

我想對我終究沒緣再見一面的人說:我不是一個很懂社交的人、嘴也不甜，但...曾經,你出現在我也挽懷念家鄉的思緒裡...一路好走!